Am I that transparent?

“You are intense.”

Sae said to me one day out of the blue.

“Even though you don’t act intense, I can see that the core of you is very intense.”

I was still taken aback by the first remark while Sae continued to dissect me under his easy-going guise of his. It stroke fear into my ability to act out the role of the biggest slacker. Am I that transparent or is he just that good at seeing through people? But before I can say anything, he added another knocker that rocked me off my feet.

“Whatever you do, find something to focus those intensity on soon.”

But avoiding being too intense was exactly what I set out to do 1 year and a half ago. The day I stopped dancing. I value Sae’s experience and judgment. So am I going at improving my life in the wrong manner?

Ever since that time, I’ve branded the intensity with which I go after anything as the major reason for some big mistakes. The fact remains that my tendency to go all out after one thing needs to be balanced out by the eyes that sees opportunities. What an interesting year this will turn out to be.