I don’t want to work with people

I think I am starting to understand what this statement means. Though, when I first heard it, it was the strangest idea ever.

Everyone has quirks. There’s a horde inside each person and they stir when you put money in their hands. To my observations, these quirks only gets magnified the longer an employee stays with a company as they gain clout and popularity amongst peers. As an employer, it is just some twisted torture that I have to endure while getting flashbacks of myself exhibiting the same quirks while I was still a foot soldier.

In the end, everything gets broken down to “They make me money, so I will bear the psychological trauma.”Because I am the type of person who will always remembers when someone stabbed me in the back no matter how much they changed their attitude later… Usually most people, when given a chance, will stab you just because you turned your back. Probably not on their own accord, but usually lured by some more experienced stabbers who want you to suffer and has no weapon.

Other resentments I am feeling from time to time. That I am too young to be where I am. Constantly going up against people more mature, more experienced and richer than me. My one secret wish has always been to be surrounded by peers… but I matured too fast.