I am now the evil adult

I recently got the chance to talk with some university students and found myself saying some of the statements that I used to hate. That’s when I realized that the circle of hatred has come to its full fruition. The amount of time I wasted on hating adults for their greed and corruption, little did I know that it’s only a subconscious manifestation of self loathing for not being able to achieve anything.

In the end, we will all realize, that the rules of society that were taught as we grow up are just that. In life, there are no rules because we don’t know what life is supposed to be.

As students, it seemed that life is about the polarization of what sucks and what is awesome without the understanding of what goes into the achievement of a major goal. Every statement, I’d make would quickly be rebuffed by clichéed responses that were canned by who-knows-what. I literally am interested in finding out who and what circumstances led to the creation of some of the popular beliefs. Statements such as: “The best things in life are free.” and “You can still have a fulfilling life and achievements without money.”

When confronted with one of these responses, I simply stop talking and start ignoring the person so I can focus on others, giving them the sense they need of defeating me with their silver tongue. In reality, it’s so I don’t have to waste my time, nor do I want their respect. So any further discussion will only lead to bad blood within the group and nobody gains from it. We will not be able to understand each other, because our base assumption of what we are aiming to do in life are completely different. Student’s ego and my denial of their word’s authority (due to the fact that they haven’t done anything yet to earn any rights in life) will prevent both parties from weighing each others’ position. I know, because a discussion with a student, is the same as a discussion with my parents, except the positions are reversed.

Student’s straightforward view of the world serves as a great reminder of what the world should be if it is not bogged down by the institution imperative that eventually traps a civilization. I appreciate them for fighting for that ideal and I believe they should continue. Remember, I once held these ideals too. Adulthood taught me how human nature interacts with these ideals and the often associated flaws that accompanies an ideal from people’s complete failure to consider the opposite effect. The ideals were just too perfect to be tainted.