Harmony

With work, I’ve entered a really strange state that I am not sure what to make of. Perhaps it is something similar to the traveler’s aura that I experienced while backpacking through Morocco but instead, it is in business.

What I think is happening is that people can sense my internal change from the biggest realization I had this year; that I no longer needs a job to support myself.  Which changed my attitude in encounters to be just that much less defensive while not fearing repercussion of standing my ground. It’s less about gaining face and appearing to be competent and more about what and where my life is headed towards. John is right. As you get near to 30, it looks more and more like your life is building up to this point. Is this mid life crisis?

My job involves daily interaction with customers and it used to be a tough job with a lot of friction and flared temper. However, I recently find myself cracking jokes with everyone who called me and hanging up the phone with a smile. Sometimes it was the clients who would intentionally drag the conversation on to talk about other things in life. Maybe I’ve got the friendly buddy attitude down to an art without actually realizing it. Maybe because most of them have known me for a while now that they’ve grown to like me.

The best part that floored me is when things fall behind on my end, the clients find excuses for my behavior when i know perfectly well that I just couldn’t keep up. My jaw dropped the first time I encountered that, and up until this day it is still a mind boggling phenomena that I can’t quite figure out yet.

What I am actually having more trouble with are people within my own company whom I didn’t have much interactions with. Very ironic when your own people gives you more problem than outsiders. Food for thought.

Maybe some of you who know me in real life that bothers to read this can one day tell me what your observations are.