What happened to that girl?

Crossed path with a woman who looked like Lauren but, upon interrogation, turned out to be somebody else. Still, it didn’t stop my heart from jumping all over the place in joy during that brief moment of confusion. It gave me a lot of questions to ponder.

I’ve passed by other people from my past before, but none of them felt as potent as a simple possibility that it might be her. None of them felt as comfortable either. How do I convey this difference. With others, there’s always some type of anxiety lurking around somewhere. Either making me self conscious or showy.

It’s probably because of the fact that I just flat asked her out on Valentine’s day and got rejected. Well, rejected in my mind back then because I was a 1 and 0 guy. Everything was black and white. Well, I didn’t want to have any regret and I didn’t know any other way. So it was the best I could’ve done I guess. It is kind of stupid because I am now regretting the fact that I gained my current knowledge too late. I shouldn’t have given up, but I did. Because that’s the type of guy I was, that’s how I did things. Take a big breath, have ample time to prepare and perform a do or die maneuver.

The comfortable feeling must’ve been a result of that. Nothing bad happened. She didn’t make fun of me or tell anyone else about it. She just accept that fact and continued on with life. No judgment no nothing. I was the one who acted weird. Then, with the stress that is to come with engineering. It got brushed to the back of my mind till today.

So I started wondering. What ended up happening to that girl with a beautiful mind?