Paralysis before the storm

“Like a Kiwi (the animal) frozen in the spotlight” ~Kiwi (the people)

Even though I keep telling myself to move my ass, to get on with all my plans and improvement projects, I seem to lack the will power to bring them to reality. Instead, I am stuck doing things that are easy, requires no effort and doesn’t require any thinking or decision making. In the face of a great change that’s coming, I am paralyzed by its enormity.

It’s like that moment right before you get hit by a car, or before a disaster stuck you down. You see it coming, but your body just stays there while your mind gets shocked into an “Oh My God!” state. No thoughts, no action. Well, I am in that state.

I haven’t had to do something that make me stress out for a while. A little uneasy in the wake of “change” and a little unsure if I can pull it off or not. It shows just how much I’ve settled into comfort that a small challenge like this can unsettle me so.

It is so unlike myself.