Frustration

I stormed out of the front door at work and welcomed the icy relief that attacked my senses. The cold is a welcome reprieve against my seething anger.

It’s getting easier and easier for me to understand a person. With the side effect of knowing how vulgar a personality that they possesses. So much so that I can’t stand their presence sometimes…

I was frustrated because of people’s ego. That and the type who, as soon as they detect any hint of kindness, make it a mission to extort everything out of you. Then there are those who, during business meetings, insists on making inappropriate jokes about you. People who seems to relish in pointing out every mistakes you made.

Just when I have finally found a place where humbleness and kindness can fit into my life, it seems to attract those of the opposite opinion who enjoys taking advantage of it. I don’t want to go back to the critical person that I was and as a person who pinches every penny out of everything.

Perhaps it is because they are so similar to my old self that it infuriates me so. When I have finally discovered a better state of being, the first obstacle I encounter is my old self. Trying everything it can to drag me back down to where I was. Doing so while I am still unsure of how to react in the new consciousness and the call from the old behavior is still sweet and recent.