Wide eyed disbelief

When Tim expressed his wide eye disbelief in the show “Office”, he did so with the perfect body language. The wide eye, the blinking and the hand pushing against his mouth. Today, I experienced just such a moment caught in between my extremely lax and sway with the wind red headed flatmate and the perfectionist alpha female who continues to have anxiety attacks so long as the lease remains unsigned.

I am just a messenger caught in between having to endure the mess created by both overtly stressed out and overly relaxed people. At least one of them aren’t telling the truth, or most likely bending reality to such a distorted proportion that any static truth will seem like a lie. It is important to understand the motivation behind each person and what will push them to lie.

The red head will lie to appear in control whilst the alpha female will lie to make her appear to be a victim and I will lie to cover any part of me that doesn’t conform to society’s norm and to feel superior compared to others in ability. Since I am dropping the current lease and moving out on my own, whether or not their lease gets renewed on time and without problem has no effect on me appearing superior, I can safely assume that I am not distorting the reality or telling any lies.
Having confirmed that, I took a breather and just decided to say fuck it. Let them sort it out amongst themselves. I was going to help double check that the red head has a place for the future and the cheapest rent possible with a new born coming to the world et all. Fuck it, because it seems to me that these two are intentionally making things harder for themselves in life and seem to thirst for melancholy and self pity.

My life is messed up as is without those, no thank you.