The tone that speaks to the heart
No matter how much I refine my proficiency in english, no matter how much I try to understand and integrate myself in the english culture, the language that speaks to my emotional self is still the one that I was born with. The following exchange speak to me truer than anything that can be done in english. It is as if english is only a facade that can be changed anytime whereas the letters in chinese are set ins tone and twist me in ways that I can’t fathom.
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æ?å–œä½ æ‰¾åˆ°æ£å¸¸çš„工作, 生活上軌é?“了, 我們也總算放心了! 這是為人父æ¯?的驕傲。
記 å¾—ä¸Šæ¬¡ä½ åœ¨ interview 以å‰?ç”應我的事嗎? 找到工作後, 我將å?‘ä½ è¦?紅包, 包括é?Žå¹´æ™‚的壓æ²éŒ¢, å†?åŠ ç”Ÿæ—¥ç¦®ç‰©ã€‚ä»¥å‰?幾個媽媽們在一起, 當時他們談到生日或年節收到å©å?們的禮物時, 眉飛色舞, 那付得æ„?的神情, 令我å?ˆç¾¡æ…•, å?ˆé›£å¿˜ã€‚ç?¾åœ¨æˆ‘想, 接下來, å?¯ä»¥è¼ªåˆ°æˆ‘å?‘他們炫耀的時候了。
就從ç?¾åœ¨é–‹å§‹å?§! æ??é†’ä½ : 媽的生日是 1950.11.18, 爸爸的生日是: 1945.03.24, 明年的農曆新年是 2007.02.18 (æ¯?å¹´ä¸?å?Œæ—¥)ã€‚æˆ‘å¸Œæœ›ä½ å’Œå“¥å“¥æœ€å¥½è¨˜å¾€é€™äº›æ—¥å?, æ¯?逢這些日å?éƒ½èƒ½å¤ æœ‰è‡ªç™¼æ€§çš„è¡¨ç¤ºã€‚é›–ç„¶, 我們目å‰?ä¸?需è¦?ç”¨ä½ å’Œå?è?¯çµ¦æˆ‘們的錢來ç¶æŒ?生活, ä½†ä½ å€‘åœ¨é•·å¤§æˆ?年後所表ç?¾çš„一切, å°?媽媽或爸爸的æ„?義都太é‡?è¦?äº†ã€‚ä½ å€‘å…„å¼Ÿå€†ä¸€å?‘都很粗心, 一直忽略這些媽媽èª?為很 “é‡?è¦?” çš„æ—¥å?。媽媽沒有女兒, å?¦å‰‡ä¹Ÿä¸?用我æ“?心來æ??é†’ä½ ã€‚
媽媽
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七年來, 我一個人在外奔波,的確長把家人放到最後. 也有å??醒é?Žæˆ‘å°?ä½ å€‘çš„æ…‹åº¦ä¹Ÿè¨±æœ‰é»žå†·æ·¡, 但餓著肚å?煩悶人生下一æ¥è©²äº”往那走時, 也沒有多花心æ€?去想.
今年, 終於有個åƒ?樣的工作. 舞é?“也告一段è?½äº†. 人生æ¥ä¼?跟著也慢下來了, 給了我時間去å??çœ?. 我發覺, 在盲目的è¡?刺下我ç–?忽了很多é‡?è¦?的人跟事. å†?æ¤æŠ±æ‰.
我會多花心血在這方�的事上.
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