punishment

When I was small, I used to get the shit beaten out of me whenever I did something wrong. Whether it'd be talking in class or not getting 100% on a test.

16 years later, I still cringe for that punishment whenever I do something I believe to be wrong. My heart rate increases, my pupils dilate and my brain taken over by fear. Slowly, I am easing myself out of that behavioral conditioning hopefully enough so that my brain won't temporarilly freeze on the smallest of things.