New life

Bruises scratches, cuts, new passport and a new “used” car later. I collapsed on the familar sofa that has been with the familly for 16 years, enjoying my one last sip of coffee surrounded by the familliar faces of this once full house. Without the furnitures it feels empty and devoid of life. Without the people it just feels dead.

Somehow everything seems to conclude this weekend as if readying itself for the new life ahead. Passport, driver’s license, car, houses. All changed ownership and addresses. I feel like my identity is changing. Gone are the rustic life of a traditional chinese familly. In its place, a modern story of hearbreaks and joys. “Scared?” I challenged myself as I spiralled into the fuzziness of sleep. Only the knowledge that every farewell brings new possibilty kept my heart anchored. Today is a day of rememberance, I will shed tears for it later.

Bye Mom, bye Dad.