When I am not a dancer

While my partner is away studying for finals….

My life is slowed down to a halt. Gone are the busy schedules, the insane hours, the super tired body all the time and the constant feeling of getting pissed off after a big fight during practice. Not to mention, having to deal with her PMS if it happens on the day we are practicing.

I find myself at a lost of what to do. There's nothing challenging to figure out, nothing challenging to do. I live and that's it. Pick up the phone, don't know what to say to my friends anymore because we are out of touch for so long. I dance in the day, work at night, come home around midnight. Not a good time to call people.

Now, i got the whole day to myself. Trying to start some project, baking cookies, making my own curtain, but nothing complicated, because in a few days, the whirlwind will come back.

Looking for job can be depressing. Especially so when you call someone up and ask what they think about your resume, only to learn that you are overqualified for it. This is the curse of engineering, curse of my personality actually.

Interviewers ask me :”What makes you special and that we should hire you?”. I replied ” Because I am not afraid of new things, in fact I embrace them with the utmost curiosity. I need new things, new challenges and complicated…” Then I froze realizing that the job I am applying for is a brain dead job that doesn't need this.

They almost always ask me: “What… is an engineer like you doing applying for this job.”