The show

Did the show. A rumba and a foxtrot. It's probablly our best show ever… I watched everyone that I knew and i have surpassed them. I feel a sense of loss… Like I no longer belong there as I have ascended into a different world and I am just something pretty they look at from now on instead of one of them, working hard to achieve something.

During the dinner, I kept asking myself the same questions. How far should I go? Is this enough? I tried to talk to my previous teacher and stopped when she asked me a question. It's a question from the perspective of the women. Have I started doing this, instead of why I am feeling this way. Right away I know they are on the defensive for all woman in the world. I know I can't pour my heart out… I can understand them cause last night, 3 of the guys dumped 3 of their partners. All men are assholes that night.

Dropped dead on my dead when I got back to my apartment it will belong to someone else in a few days. Email box full of people contacting me for something. Parents moving to Vancouver, there's no way for me to fall back anymore. It's me and the water behind me from now on… I wondered, what have I achieved this weekend?