Saida Tesfai

This is an unusual entry for me but I’ve decided it’s unusual enough for me to dedicate a whole entry to this one person at work. Yes Saida Tesfai a beauty I came upon.

I thought I have grown enough that I will never feel a helpless crush like the ones I felt in high school. To feel this one towards one person so much that I can’t think when she’s beside me. I don’t like losing control of myself like that and I am deftly afraid of her. The problem is she is not afraid of me and is very open to call my name and discuss anything she likes.

She left, sneaked away as you said without saying good bye to anyone. I feel like a boy again, which is good. I am alive and I can still feel, just need to work on how I behave and act when I am giddly happy. When someone’s scent fills my brain or that someone’s presence beside me blinds me.