Pessimism

It's not that I am bitter or pessimistic, it's just 2 years of solid, getting doors shut in your face on something you worked so hard to achieve. Mainly speaking a friggin' job in engineering.

When nothing you do gets you any reply what so ever, you don't know what you are doing right or what you are doing wrong. Keeps you in a constant state of wonder with no stability. Well, tomorrow I am doing cold calls. I am desperate enough I guess. My experience with cold calls is that they are a nice confidence booster when they do meet you. But it's like a huge ass hammer that slammed on you when nothing came out of it.