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I see a wave of people being fired at work. Inside information tells me that the reason they use to fire people are just excuses for them to fire the ones they don't like. I have this sick idea of pissing them off so much and giving them no reason to fire me by being the perfect employee. I am pretty sure they'd use this live journal as a reasons to fire me, if thye don't like my attitude. I wonder if I can sue them for racism… HAHHA. Anyway, the prisoners are getting more and more desperate and inventive. I hate how they can pretend to have every right of using our service and souding as if we are doing something bad to them… After a few such calls, I started to get a secret kick out of hanging up on them. Sometimes I'll say “Sorry we cannot process your call, have a nice day” and wait to listen to their swearing.. Sometimes I let them say a few words only to hang up in the middle of the sentence, leaving them frustrated and hating us. I feel ashamed to get a thrill out of this. It is against the way of being that I am trying to achieve, I feel i've stepped down a few steps by lowering myself to their level.

Other than my busy life that I keep having. I am lucky to have 2 hours home today after work and practicing. Everyday it's the same. Wake up at 6am, come home at 10 pm. but today, I got home at 9pm. I am so happy with this one extra hour, so short yet so precious.

I visited cat's corner. Immediately,I noticed the brick wall decor and the mood lighting they have. It sets the right mood to back to the 60 when the cities are mainly industrial. Reminds me of a hard labour time with the rough textures of bricks. The floor…. My feet were having orgasms just feeling it through my snow boots. I can imagine what it must be like dancing on top of it and I must say, it's better than the floor we've been using for sure. Hopefull something good will come out of this…

If not, I'll just continue with my ways and help others that I can help. I am glad that I have rid my selfishness from the core of my behavior and continued on with helping those in need within my power. Helping is a subtle art. You can't give too much, nor can you give too little. You have to give the right help at the right time when they needed it the most so they can appreciate it and remember why they needed help in order to work towards their own independence.