I need some hugging

Finally, the blues and depressions hit me hard again.
I am going through the whole shfield of changing country again. I can remember going through this a year ago and it wasn't a good feeling. At exactly one month, I am going to start crying at night or something because that's when I get to see that no results came through with my frantic search of: friends, jobs, dancing, girlfriends etc.

I hate having to prove myself again to so many people. I mean, I've already found my center, but here I am, I have to prove that center. But where is it? Oops! Too bad, it's in Mandarin.

Somebody comfrot me for god's sake.