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Crap… I can feel it, I can feel myself distancing from the real world little by little. THe chase of this one bug is slowly turning my mind into a machine that chunks 1 and 0 out at people passing by the road. I've become one of those jokes that I read in one of the engineering books about engineer's lives.

It's way past the 5 weeks overtime limits now… I can't keep doing overtimes anymore. My mind is dead and I am very emotional right now. I need time to properly deal with my depression yet I can't. I'd get hit by waves of negative emotions at work and I'd have to instantly block it off because I am interacting with boss and client.

Hewlett Packard's VP are coming over the weekend, and we have to pull overtimes to accompany them. Doing their jobs for them…
Let me ask you a question. How come when one thigns falls apart, everything else unrelated in your life falls aprt as well?