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Do you know the feeling of failing after giving it 120% of everything you got for a whole year? To fail as a person, to fail as a tool and to fail in life.

For once, I am glad of excessive sweating while I dance. No one noticed that there were tears in my eyes the whole time. They were blinded by the overpowering emotions of my dance… but I still dance along, without a permanent partner by my side to return. It's like I am emitting all my emotional energies, into this endless void that sucks it up with my life energies together.

Sitting in Starbucks sifting my favorite coffee made it a little bit better, but I still couldn't fight it. Oh well, I haven't been depressed for so long, it's time anyway. But life continues on and it doesn't give mercy to those who trap themselves in emotional turmoils.