Mixing art and tech

Today is one of those days where I feel extremely lonely. A day where I wonder if anyone will ever understand what my struggles are like. Not the pretended “Oh I know what it must be like, I can imagine” but an actual “HA! Yeah, but it is awesome isn’t it?” by someone who’ve actually walked through the same path.

Dancesport and engineering cannot mix. That is a fact that I have to learn. I wish that both my boss and dance teachers can experience my life. I wish that they could understand the pain I felt when I have to call my partner up to cancel the practice, or leave work early, when everyone else is staying. I wish that the other part of my life exists in their mind. That I sacrificed 4 hours of commuting on bus and subways so I can keep both of the life counts for something. I wished that they’d stop guilt tripping me for not spending more time in either field. I wish… that I can stop breaking promises.

But what’s more, I wished that there’s someone like me to laugh at this with.