Engineering chinese style

I have never worked through both new year’s eve and Christmas before, but I just did. It’s not the fact that I am not getting my day off that sucks, but the fact that everyone else is partying around me. Everyone, has a happy smile on their face. Couples holding hands, going out, friends beating each other playfully. It makes me stand out of the crowd even more, as I lean, alone, against the pole for support on the train home. Arms crossed, as a protest.

I called my partner yesterday asking why she didn’t show up. She forgot her shoes at her home was the excuse… I didn’t want to say anything even know I can see the lie very clearly. Why would she bring her shoes home in the first place? She only dances when she’s living at school and her dad forbids her dancing. So if he sees the shoes… Sigh… 3 years ago, I treat all women as goddess, now I just feel like ” don’t waste my time” towards them. What a big change.